Loose ends

I've been doing many things on impulse lately. Like really impulively.

Sometimes I find myself cleaning the house or sorthing through my clothes but usually my intrest dies somewhere right in the middle so I have no real progress to show. I snapped photos from our rooms to show them uncleaned and then cleaned but the cleaned part never happened.

Next to that I have been building up an unhealthy addiction to Lyza's new Ipad. But that is a whole different story but let me tell you I am a wonderful frog breeder.

There are no real news on our apartment yet, which scares me just the slightest bit but we will try to call our landlord today again.

Returning to the topic of loose ends. In my head I write at least three different blog posts a day but don't finish them. I keep lists filled with ideas for either this blog and Lyza's and my K-pop project but somehow I miss the vigor to go though with these plans.

So what I want to say, I think, is that my life is changing right at the moment and it did not finish by now so I can't really adjust. If I am honest I don't really know when I will be but maybe I will get closer to that goal once we moved or at least once we can start packing.

We have gotten offers of household things, furniture and lots of advice over the past weeks but without even being sure that everything with the apartment will work out okay it's also kind of in the air. I hate this waiting, really.

Because on one hand it gives me the opportunity to go at everything slowly but on the other it gives me too much time to worry about everything, especially money if we are honest.

All this worrying resolutes into my wanting to do something but if I do one thing I need to do something else and thus I just get pulled into the habit of abandoning things before finsihing them again. This is a bit hopeless but I try to break this circle over and over again.

On happier and maybe a bit more informative news I've been trying to start sewing. It's nothing big, only new pillow cases for the kitchen but it's a start and I still did not give up on the idea of producing something and selling it. I will keep you updated, hopefully, and I think I already found a real toppic and not me angsting for my next post. Isn't that exciting?

So please look forward to the next post most probably even with pictures again!

Love 

Maren

Ps. I think I finally get a hang of all this inspiration posting so I think you can look forward to a few posts about things that inspire me as well. Would you like that?

Changes

Over the past months many things changed but most of all I stopped really doing anything. My school ended three months ago and I got into roleplaying, once again, and it kind of took up my time.

Lyza went to Korea and if I am honest I more or less didn't do anything else than sitting in front of the pc and I did not even manage to update this place.

There is also the problem that I did not sew in quite a while but!, and this is why I am writing this whole post, things are changing. And hope fully I can document the change while it's happening for everyone interested.

This is actually just a quick heads up but it feels like a starting point to me. Maybe it's because tomorrow a new month will begin or maybe it's because yesterday we probably saw our new apartment. But yes it feels like something is starting.

As mentioned yes we are planning on moving into our own apartment. This is so exciting you can't even believe. We already kind of have a place but it needs rennovation before we move there fully but the person who is giving it for rent promised us to do exactly that within the next ... four weeks? and then she would call us again if we still wanted the apartment. We will be going there again in about two weeks, but guys this is the most exciting and sad thing at the same time. Really I've squealed so much and on the other hand I already cried twice. But as I am typing I realize this most probably needs a own post so I am aiming for that in the continuing week(s).

Another thing is that, as I mentiones, school is over and now I am stuck looking for a job. I kind of shyed away from going to search for one earlier so now I am under time pressure but really I think I needed time to realize everything. It's not the best excuse but the best I can offer. I've send out some applications, also some for the next year but that's still so far away and I need money actually ... now. I will at least send three more today, lets just hope I'll get accepted somewhere and we can continue to look for something better from that point, can't we?

But as I am talking about a regular job Lyza and I both really want to continue our Vlog project about Korea, we've been having it on hold since Lyza went to Korea, but I am energized. There is however much planning to do for this and video editing takes lots of time. I feel ready to accept this challenge though, especially with the perspective to earn a bit more money though something I love.

And another thing! I think everyone knows etsy and there is a german pendant to that where I really want to start selling self sewn bookcovers, and hopefully other things in the future, but to do that I really need to sew some things that can be sold first.

Last but not least my two rooms are in a constant 'mess mood' so if we want to move, even if it's only in four weeks I need to start throwing things out, sorting though them and at one point looking what we need for a new apartment.

Looking at this it sounds like quite a lot but right now ... I feel not the slightest bit scared (I am sure it will come back soon) but only happy and looking forward to my future.

I will try to document my failure or success with you and you are gladly invited to join me in my journy to ... adulthood?

Love

Maren

ps. I really like this post!